The world came crashing down at the same time every year. My small hands broke like glass and I became exactly who I was. I turn 19 in a few days and all I can think about is how I never fully lived through any of it. I taught myself when I was small and fragile how to keep running. I used blades, diets, drugs, cigarettes, and alcohol to call it "living". I avoided everything until it came crashing down, just to ignore it all over again.
I turn 19 in a few days and all I can think about is how it never got better. how I became a cup with a pinprick in the bottom, and every chance I had to become human again slowly slipped out of me.
We are not only all the years we have to come, but also all the years we were.
I clenched onto this glass cup. and I can't help but hate myself for never allowing myself to live, to love, to be something other than fucked memories. I signed my name to every assault after lawn gnome and all I became was what had happened. There is nothing left for me than more unconventional times.
Vienna- Billy Joel
When I'm Small- Phantogram
Take off your pants - Indigo De Souza
im gonna be honest, i meant to tell you,. i cant stop
katbird02
happy birthday
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